As July 2, 2013 approached I began to feel sad. I knew it was my last HSG test. The previous one that took place in my fertility specialist's office did not offer much hope for my remaining tube. He had said that it appeared to be closed however since the Radiology Department in the hospital had equipment was more accurate he would like for me to go there and have it done again.
The night before my appointment I had this feeling of dread. I have done pretty well with keeping my thoughts optimistic up to this point. However, I knew that the next day's results were going to require us to have the conversation about going either the IVF or adoption route. I was just not ready to face that yet. Plus, I knew how painful this procedure was last time so I kept thinking about the pain.
I woke up that morning in a gloomy mood. We went to work for a few hours. I decided to take some "strong" pain pills that were left over from my surgery. I took them about 45 mins before my HSG test. I kind of had to laugh because I felt them kick in a bit on the drive over to the hospital. Thankfully my dear husband was driving just for that reason. As we sat in the waiting room I watched my doctor come through the door. With the combination of seeing him and my medication beginning to work I started to truly relax. I kept thinking that I had already gone through so much and was willing to do whatever it took for us to have a baby I was not going to back down now. My main focus was to just get it over with and deal with the results as they came.
I arrived in the cold radiation room nice and calm. I was so thankful that my doctor was there to greet me. He had driven all the way from his office to downtown just for my appointment. That was a great comfort. He said he didn't trust anyone else with my test or results. He truly is good at what he does. So the test began. Due to my "strong" medication of percacet I only had a few moments of discomfort. That alone was wonderful. He did say that my Uterus looked perfect. I liked hearing that. He said regardless of how it may happen that I was in amazing condition to carry the baby. That was a concern of mine since they had to remove that huge fibroid that was growing on the outside of my uterus. He was able to remove it without causing scar damage. That further eased my level of anxiety. Then came the words I wasn't looking forward to hearing, he said didn't see the fluid going through the tube. I just sighed thinking...I knew it. So he had my roll on to my side with the machine positioned right above my lower abdomen. Once I rolled to my side he pushed quite a bit of fluid through all at once. Then he had me go back to laying flat on my back. He then said....
ALL LOOKS GREAT! Your tube is OPEN!!!
I could not help myself from tearing up quite a bit. I think I even held my breath afraid I would break down in tears of joy.
My doctor was elated. I was over the moon and even the nurse said, "Well honey, everyone deserves some good news every once in a while." I could not have put it better myself. My doctor then said that next month he wants to put me on some medicine (Clomid) that will make my body ovulate from both sides. This way it will up my chances instead of guessing which side I would ovulate on. Otherwise, we would always be hoping it was going to be the side with the remaining tube.
I got dressed quickly and left. I found Moussa wandering along the hallways. I didn't say anything at all. I just reached up and gave him a big hug. I whispered in his ear. My tube is open. He quickly tightened the hug. He pulled me away to look at me with the biggest smile ever and then hugged me again! We floated out of the hospital out to the car. All the way home we were chatting it up about how wonderful it was that we were getting another chance to conceive naturally.
I called my mother and grandmother and he called his family. Then he took me home to sleep off the medication while he went back to our office.
As I sit here now, I am feeling a sense of relief and excitement. We are at a perfect place in our life for us to get pregnant and start our family. So here's to hopefully continued good news in our near future!
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