August 30, 2013

August 30, 2013

Obviously, I ended up not being pregnant however we are starting our 2nd cycle of Clomid again this month.  They will also be having me give myself shots of the HCG hormone in about a week for only a few days.  I feel as if now I will know what is normal reactions to the Clomid vs. thinking I may be pregnant.  I like to be able to look back at my past months logs to compare.  It helps me keep my sanity.  So we shall see what takes place this coming month of September.  I will be turning 37 in September and Moussa will be turning 28.  Fingers crossed.

August 13, 2013

I am now at DPO 5 (Days Past Ovulation).  Ah the terms I am still learning.  There seems to be a whole new language in the pregnancy world.  I continue to track my every twinge.  I am still fighting to not be obsessed and chalk it up to merely recording for medical reasons.  However, knowing that I have at least 5 more days until a very sensitive HPT (Home Pregnancy Test) will even possibly register is pretty tortuous.  I still feel great to know that I have done all that is required of me and am being monitored by such an amazing Fertility Specialist.  I inquired about the size of my follicles that I had tested on August 8, 2013.  I had read about how the size of them truly mattered.  I read that anything between a size 18 and 28mm was wonderful.  They also said that the follicles can grow between 1 to 2mm per day until they were released.  My largest follicle on the right side (which is where I have my tube) was 25mm and another was 14mm.  From further research I guess that is exactly the range to be in.  If my 2nd one was larger then I would have had a chance to have twins however I think I am to only rely on the 25mm one. 

Now, here comes the privately obsessive part where I am tracking every twinge.

- I am bloated
- nauseated the moment I awake that fades throughout the day until evening when it picks back up
- headache
- boobs are heavy and sore
- increased CM (tmi I know)
- beyond exhausted - by 10p.m. I can no longer keep my eyes open
- heartburn
- frequent urination
- light cramping that dances from side to side

On to more days of feeling like a crazy person.  The unknown is always the hardest part for me.

~April

August 8, 2013

August 8, 2013


I will back up a few days to get to today.  These are my personal notes that I keep to monitor my symptoms etc.  They are usually written in present tense for that day.

August 6, I presume I will test positive tomorrow because I am already lightly cramping, am bloated, have a headache am extremely nauseous yet not actually throwing up.  I have this overwhelming feeling as if my bladder is low in my abdomen and is full.  I envision a huge water balloon.  I am exhausted yet trying not to complain because I am excited to see what may happen this first round of Clomid.  

August 7, took OPK (digital) tested positive (smiley face).  I knew it.  I am so happy.  This explains the awful nauseous feelings I had this morning.  I have read that if you have taken Clomid that the cramps, bloating, uncomfortable feeling and nausea will go away after you ovulate.  Per the Dr. office they say I should be ovulating tomorrow.  When I called to let them know I tested positive for my LH surge they immediately made an appt. for tomorrow morning at 7:30a.m. to do an ultra sound to check my follicles. I have this overwhelming feeling of contentment just knowing that everything is going as it should for once.  I am not stressed out at all.  I am actually just making sure I do everything that I am supposed to.  If they say jump I will jump.

August 8, Went to the Doctor today at 7:30a.m. for my ultra sound to look at my follicles. They saw 1 large mature follicle on my right side and a few smaller ones on my left side (which does not matter since I do not have a tube there).  I was told me lining was very thick which is a very good sign.  So far everything is following along to the letter.  They did confirm that the symptoms that I am experiencing will diminish once I release the egg during ovulation.  They are predicting me to ovulate today or early tomorrow.  I was forwarned that ovulation could be painful this time due to the Clomid.  Then they scheduled me to have my progesterone levels checked on August 15 and August 19.  I am supposed to take a HPT on August 23. Sure no problem I can wait that long to test....(scoff).  Anyone that is TTC (trying to conceive) knows that waiting is the hardest part.  

So now we continue doing exactly as we are told and we shall see what happens.