I realize I tend to avoid any mundane updates on this blog for the simple reason I go back and see my previous timeline. It pains me to read of my ups and downs of baby no baby.
I am usually an extremely happy and optimistic person however this tale is getting to be disheartening. Let me back up two months. That would bring us to November 9, 2012 to be exact.
I had the familiar feeling that I was indeed pregnant. I tested early per usual with negative results yet not surprised. I finally tested around the appropriate time and got a BIG FAT POSITIVE! I tested around 5:30a.m. (since they say to use the first morning urine). Once I had the result I couldn't function. I was pacing in the bathroom back and forth trying to figure out what to do and how to surprise Moussa with the news. I was trying to come up with all kinds of clever ways. Yet, since he is always the first person I tell anything too I could not wait a second longer. I went to his side of the bed and turned on the lamp. I woke him up by thrusting the test into his sleepy hands. Once he realized what he was holding he jumped clear out of bed and grabbed me out of pure joy. (Thank goodness he always wakes up in a good mood.) We were overjoyed yet we both made a pact to wait to tell anyone until we went to the doctor. So that day I made an appointment to get in to see my OBGYN. I knew it was going to be a very long weekend. The next day I didn't go or do anything I just rested on the sofa from being overly tired. It was a wonderful feeling. I was being lazy and did not have an ounce of guilt. However, the next day (Sunday) I was not feeling well with quite a bit of pain in my lower region. It has snowed all day so we decided to grab a late dinner to have the traffic go down a bit. While walking into the restaurant I was in such unbearable pain I could barely walk. Moussa was so worried about me. I was just praying over and over that it was nothing. The drive home from the restaurant was the longest drive I could remember. Moussa kept saying we should go to the hospital. I disagreed and thought I just needed to lie down. After about an hour I finally gave in a agreed I needed to go to the ER. Once we arrived they did their own scans and confirmed the pregnancy. They also told me that I had a fairly large fibroid but that it was nothing to worry about. After several hours they sent me home since they knew I had a doctors appointment the next day.
When I finally did see my OBGYN the following day they also confirmed it was too early to tell much about the pregnancy. However, when they saw the fibroid that was on the outside of my uterus they became very very concerned. They said it was the size of a grapefruit. They were worried about me being able to carry a viable pregnancy. Regardless, they gave me some medicine to take to thicken the lining of my uterus just incase they would be able to save the pregnancy. I then went into the doctors office nearly everyday so they could keep checking me. They wanted to see my beta (blood) levels going up. On Thursday night my doctor called with the news that we were not having a successful pregnancy yet she wanted to get me into surgery the next morning to do a D&C as well as a camera scope to check out what all was going on, on the inside. So the next day (Friday, November 15, 2012) I went to work for a few hours before my procedure. I was sitting sideways in my chair due to the pain. It was so severe. Finally I went to hospital late morning. After a few hours they finally gave me some pain medication. Upon waking up from my procedure I was choking. I started to panic since I was just coming out of anesthesia and could not communicate. It was the single most terrifying time of my life. Finally I woke enough for them to explain that not only had they done the D&C but that my fallopian tube had burst due to an ectopic pregnancy. My doctor had to remove my left tube. After many hours I finally went home. I had three one inch incisions. For the next week I stayed home. I could barely move. After a few weeks I was right as rain.
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